Disclaimer: This is a blog post in response to what I have written a year ago. That post, a product of my drunk self writing all my thoughts out, encompassed the feelings I would’ve never told the world if it weren’t for the alcohol. But now, as sober as I am, I am finally ready to write again.
Dear 2016 self (and to you who are reading this now),
I commend you.
This has been a year that hit you the hardest. You have stumbled one too many times. You have fallen to the ground, scarred your knees, cried silent tears, and screamed so much inside. You have lost yourself in what seemed like an endless labyrinth. You have been broken, you have been hurt, you have been shattered.
And yet, you stood up. You fought all the monsters in your head and went on with your life. You were brave and although the anxiety almost killed you, you knew you have to breathe and so, you did.
For those, let me tell you that I am so proud of you.
This year, you just turned 18. As excited as you were for finally being legal, you also faced the fear. The fear of time running out. The fear of not living up the best of your life. The fear of not fully living at all. You overcame them all, slowly but surely. You have experienced new things and traveled to new places this year, as if there was no clock ticking, no hourglass slowly running out of sand. You also met a lot of new people this year and went to various events that opened you to what the world has more to offer. You have discovered new passions and enhanced so much more of some of your skills. You have seen some of your favorite people who you thought were just impossible to see. You have written words, inspired people, and gave more. And most of all, you loved more; in turn, you were also loved.
They say you first have to fall to learn how to stand up. And I think that’s precisely something you have conquered. With a broken heart, restless body, exhausted mind, and empty soul, you moved forward with your life and bent through storms.
You are a better person now. Even though you may not completely feel it, I believe you are.It really is amazing what a year can do. And next year, you are going to reach new heights, conquer more mountains, and achieve more goals.
Because now, finally, you are free. Of every thing that’s holding you back and of every fear and negativity in your life.
You are free. And there is so much more to come.